13.05.2006, 12:49 am
I have become an endless river. Streams of cool, crisp water surround and swallow smooth rocky turns and swiftly whip between one another, sliding toward the center. Icy blue waves lapping at the shore, pulling and smothering every sunken secret. I am never solid, you can never grab me. You can try and wrap yourself around me but I will drop and drip away, evaporating and leaking. I will overwhelm you with my weight and volume but you cannot contain me, not forever. Lock me up and I will disappear. I can never be caught.
Decomposing matter becomes silent, rigid barriers become smooth, unnatural pieces turn soft and fall apart. I try to find myself, but as my self-awareness increases I become too solid even for my own composition and I sweep myself away. I cannot grab ahold of myself to see or to feel, I carry myself away.
I released the flood gates two years ago and I have been flooding, floating and gliding ever since. I cannot stop, I cannot be stopped, but this may never end. I cannot get off, I cannot slow, my paths will converge into a single, endless river and move north toward tomorrow.
I have drowned in my own life, but I am too frozen to do anything except ride the current.
