25.02.2007, 1:16 am
I promise I will never lie to you. I promise. I will open myself to you and release control of my words and my movement. I will lie back and bare my body to you, and the ties that secure my internal mechanisms will release and reveal an unseen side to myself. I will bare to you every delicate, fragile part of my existence and place each one in your hand. I will lie before you, fully exposed, but completely enveloped in the comfort of your all-seeing eyes. The blood that beats from my swollen heart will cover your hands and your arms, and it will bless you and heal the wounds you have suffered. My heart will continue to beat--and beat stronger in your grasp, and the closer it becomes to you the stronger I will become.
Dismantle my body. Separate every piece of me you can manipulate and magnify every flaw and every fantasy you have ever had of me. I want you to. All my life I have been waiting for the moment to surrender it all back to you. My mind is so filled that the pressure has become overwhelming. I can no longer tolerate an existence without release. I want to release it all onto you.
Please ignore everything you know about me. None of it is true. All of me that you need to know is inside me...but first you need to open me up. Please.
